• About Me
  • Contact
  • Links to other stuff I’ve written
  • Useful Links

Nina Childish

~ and various brain kittens

Nina Childish

Tag Archives: New Year’s Resolutions

The Resolution Solution

03 Wednesday Jan 2018

Posted by ninachildish in Blog, Disability, Mental Health

≈ Leave a comment

Tags

chronic fatigue, ehlers-danlos syndrome, managing chronic illness, New Year's Resolutions, personal

I tend to make the same New Year’s Resolutions each year: read more, write more, do my physio, wear my bruxism mouthguard, be happy with my body shape and size as it is. This year I’ve also resolved to start swimming again (aim for once a month), and see my mum more (again, once a month would be a great increase). I try not to  see them as firm resolutions as much as goals it would be nice to achieve, but even this softening of the term doesn’t stop me sometimes being hard on myself when I don’t manage to keep them up, even though it’s ill health and not laziness or lack of willpower that causes this. Depression stops me enjoying books, which are, when being read, my greatest joy; writing is hard to focus on when fatigued or in pain, or when the brain kittens are playing; the mouthguard hardly got worn at all in the first 10 months of last year thanks to a rogue wisdom tooth.

So, this year I’ve decided that in addition to my standard well-intentioned resolutions, I will add another: I resolve to try my hardest not to be angry with myself when health, physical or mental, prevents me from keeping a New Year’s Resolution, or an appointment, or a social event. All being angry with myself does is encourage me to wallow in self-pity over my shonky collagen and propensity to sadness, and I’m not a fan of self-pity when it comes to things I cannot change, where I cannot turn that self-pity into dogged determination. If I only read 16 books again, as I did last year, so be it – at least I read some books. If I only wear my mouthguard every few nights, that’s better than not at all. One thing I am determined to stick to, though, is the writing. One of the reasons I set up my Patreon page was to give me an impetus to write, if not to a schedule, then at least with greater frequency. But, if  my health gets in the way of even that important goal, then I will try to remember the last and most important resolution for this year.

 

 

Support me on Ko-Fi

Buy Me a Coffee at ko-fi.com

Support me via Patreon

search the blog

Categories

Recent Posts

  • Airlift
  • Equal Access Booking: Good Venues in London
  • Access Review – Cabaret at the Playhouse (Kit Kat Club)
  • WTF ATG? (now updated)
  • The Good Samaritan

Tags

ableism access accessibility Accessible London access review Activism aids and adaptations anorexia anxiety beauty benefits borderline personality disorder bus buying tickets campaigning chronic fatigue chronic illness CMHT complaint coronavirus council crip the vote depression diagnosis disability disability services DWP eating disorder ehlers-danlos syndrome ESA eviction Family fuck tropes general election gp Hamilton health heart failure Housing hypomania incompetence London managing chronic illness Mental Health Mental Health Awareness Week mental health services microaggressions money policing mother news New Year's Resolutions nightmare personal pip poetry positivity powerchair privilege product design product review rant recovery relationship self pity shopping sleep apnea social anxiety suing a bus company theatre therapy Tories transport wheelchair work capability assessment writing

Website Powered by WordPress.com.

  • Follow Following
    • Nina Childish
    • Join 130 other followers
    • Already have a WordPress.com account? Log in now.
    • Nina Childish
    • Customize
    • Follow Following
    • Sign up
    • Log in
    • Report this content
    • View site in Reader
    • Manage subscriptions
    • Collapse this bar